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For you I miss my trains

I forget to text my friends

For you I burn my lunch

I say I love you on a hunch

For you I let my tea go cold

I stare at an empty whiteboard

For you I don't call my dad

Scared he'll know I got it bad

For you I don't get out of bed

Hit myself right in the head

For you I pay for stupid things

That you'll never want or never need

I know you didn't ask for this

To be a bruising never-kiss

To be my growing ache in chest

And my dark frozen eyes with tears

I know it was never meant to be

A cruel weakness in the knee

But I hoped you would want to make

Just one hopeful mistake for me